As we were talking outside it was cold we were shivering yet warmed by the subjest matter
My wife is in the next room we´ve been having troubles you know please don´t tell her or anyone
But I need to talk to somebody
You said“wouldn´t it be a shame if I knew how great I was five minutes befor I died I´d be filled with such regret befor I took my last breath“ and I said „you´re willing to tell me this now and you´re not going to die any time soon“
And I said I haven´t been eat chicken or meat or anything and you said yes but you´ve been wearing leather and laughed said we´re at the top of the food chain
And yes you´re still a fine woman and I cringed
I was hoping I was hoping we could heal each other
I was hoping I was hoping we could be raw together
We left the restaurant where the head waiter(in his 60´s) said “good-bye sir thank you for your business sir you´re successful and established sir and we like the frequency with which you dine here sir and your money“ and when I walked by they said “thank you too dear“ I was all pigtails and cords and there was a day when I would´ve said something like “hey dude I could buy and sell this place so kiss it“
I too once thought I was owed something
I was hoping I was hoping we could challenge each other
I was hoping I was hoping we could crack each other up
I too thought that when proved wrong I lost somehow
I too once thought life was cruel
It´s a cycle really you think I´m withdrawing and guilt tripping you I think you´re insensitive
And I don´t feel heard and I said do you belive we are fundamentaly judgmental?fundamentaly evil?and you said yes I said I don´t belive in revenge in right or wrong good or bad you said “well what about the man that I saw handcuffed in the emergency room bleeding after beating his kid and she threw a shoe at his head
I think what he did was wrong and I would´ve had a hard time feeling compassion for him
I had to watch my tone for fear of having you feel judged
I was hoping I was hoping we could dance together
I was hoping I was hoping we could be creamy together
